life's go on..

so sorry! my blog is getting bored i know.. mother turtle!
well, i think will stop update till new year, *new year stuff is fun!
might be a long long post.. seriously!
okay, ppl said this year siangtheng changed much.. well did i?
i'm changing to an antogonist or a protagonist? *too much novels nowadays!
partically, am still who i am!
i'm still the one who bein lazy
i'm still the one who love my friends much
i'm still the one who always stick with my mom
i'm still the one who shouted like crazies when i get mad
i'm still the one who like to sketch drawings on everywhere!

can't u guys just see that all my personalities are stood still on me?
i cant bare to lose every one of my friends!
except there is serious betraying...
in form 3, i've tried to save back our friendship, u're just kinda like take no serious!
u stole things and u don't admit it! since the day we found that u steal, we're just like a lil too disappointed, kept finding some reasonable reason and console ourselves to forgive u..
yes, even tough we've proven u're a THIEF!
me and stephanie tried to talk to u, but what? acting innocent?
and wtf is, u said we never trust u! pls lah, if we don't, we wont even talk to u!
am keep asking myself to be humble, maybe u have financal problem?
or maybe u face some struggles in ur family? but noo, u lied to teacher!
u're a jerks that stole ppl things!
since that day, i lose a best friend, i lose my money, and i stop TRUSTING!


friends that really care shouldn't betray!
they're just like talking nonsense to cheer u up when you're down..
giving u spunk and support when u need them
sending birthday wishes sincerely even there's no gift or present
hugging each other warmly without any reason * bei bei did hug me this morning, sweet*
getting paranoid together!
never shout on each other!
and yes, this is what a loyal friend and a true freindship is!
kinda hate certain ppl that treat their friends like a clown and using them like no appreaciation
wtf! u fooled ur friend like nothing, and u can just act sashayly? so dumb!
depressingly, there's this type of pl among my friends..


so love... like normally i love my family for sure...
but since the situation is getting worst, mom doesn't sleep with dad anymore..
tough thay are just act like nothing in fornt of us, but i can feel the problem is serious now...
what can i do? bro and sis have their own work and responsibility...
they have totally no time to care abt this.... is this meant that i have to face all this alone?
i cant even solve or tell anyone once i faced this.... crying doesn't solve anything right?
so, i never cry easily... i can tell u that from last year to this year, i never cried for over 3 times!
maybe some crying is touching tears lah.. haha
so, i have to tell u mom, whatever way u choose to walk, i'll always support u... cheers!
another love * shy shy
i've being singe like, err... 2 years hor?
between this two years, i have fall in love to someone but i prefer to shut..
to hold on our friendship and to maintain our relationship..
sorry to those that i've really hurted u... i meant, really sorry... no others..
bf really stands a big part in my heart... i believe in true love and so there is no such thing like randomly....i would really love him with all my heart from the start till the end of the relationship
so, i love u, the future one..*chuckles..

is it long enough?
gonna stop here lah..
not good in typing this type of things..
but what i'm saying is definately from the deepest of ma heart..
thanks! ^^